Hello people. Recently been thinking alot. Thought about giving up a heck alot of things. But so far, there are only a few things that I really want to give up ASAP: an education, friends, and life. Most likely guessing that those are the most important things I shouldn't give up, but what choice am i to have?

Education
I'm giving up an education due to my loan not coming into the school. because it hasnt come in, I cant really do anything about it. Pretty much stuck not going. I want to go, but i cant. There is like one week for this to be all taken cared of, but I doubt it will be. When i most want to go to school, i cant. It would be nice if someone was rich on DA and willing to spare me some cash as a grant or scholarship or even a private loan. So far right now, i'm aiming on working on my new account on DA (please visit: [link]) There are still nothing uploaded there but it's solely to sell some stuff to people on DA. The entire process will most likely be done in cash though...There is like no where i can cash checks or money orders where i live now...at least most of them are like miles away =< but the stuff i will be selling will be quite nice like jewelry, books, manga, anime, etc so i hope people come support me

Friends
I'm giving these up because I dont feel i have that many friends here or there at all. Some double cross me. Some are not even worth having. Others just up and leave. etc etc etc. Why bother being with people that dont even see you as a friend.

Life
Giving this up simply because I've lost the desire to live completely. I wish I could feel like living but right now, it's really hard to have the desire. Been having pounding headaches, fights, disappearing everywhere, feeling like i dont belong, drinking, crying, etc etc

Blah. It's like if i want to talk to someone about it, I really cant, because i dunno how to explain it or put it...and no one is there so i could hug them either to just let it all out. It's very frustrating! >.<

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